She that Believed...

I think I can honestly say I’ve become a master of not panicking when something isn’t happening — yet.

It’s almost a superpower.

But it didn’t start that way.

There was a time when (ughh) waitinggg

felt unbearable.

When you are someone who has dreams that feel bigger than TIME, When you are ambitious and feel called to do great things,

Waiting can feel like failure.

Especially in our social media era. And especially in an industry that rewards visibility and velocity.

But God’s promise has always steadied me in seasons like that.

“Blessed is she that believed, for there shall be a performance of those things which were told to her from the Lord.” (Luke 1:45)

That scripture has walked with me for years. Encouraged me. Fortified me.

be·lieve /bəˈlēv/ verb

accept (something) as true; feel sure of the truth of.

I love the word 'believe' because it sounds whimsical & dreamy

and a little Pisces-coded, if I'm being honest.

(yes chile, I’m a Pisces)

But belief is not fantasy.

Belief is accepting something as true before you see it.

Feeling sure of a truth you can't yet prove.

That takes work.

There is discipline in belief.

There is process in belief.

There is obedience in belief.

It's a verb, and I fully believe it's active. Belief is ACTIVE trust.

For me, that concept looks a lot like:

Continuing to grind when there’s no “first day of rehearsal” announcement to make, Continuing to smile in my heart when there is no applause —no “likes”— coming my way, Continuing to trust the Creator’s plans when the callbacks don’t turn into offers.

When it’s just me…

and whatever survival gig I’m currently surviving at...

Do I still believe?

“...for there shall be a performance of those things which were told to her from the Lord.”

That means something was told.

So, here’s a question: (If you believe in a God) Are you listening for what your creator is telling you?

Not what you’re telling yourself.

Not what ya mama/sista/agent is telling you.

Not what social media is telling you.

But what the Creator telling you?

Whenever I start listening for that direction — really listening — the “shall be” usually begins to unfold for me.

Now let me be honest.

Sometimes that journey to listening

has led me to craaaazy pivots.

Deeeeeep detours.

Moments where I’ve had to

loosen my grip on the identity of

“working artist” altogether...

because either God stopped me

in my tracks and said HERE...

or

because I NEEDED a particular detour

to spiritually get to a place

where I could actually HEAR the

small still voice in my spirit.

There have been seasons when I’ve prayed, “If this isn’t what You have for me, I’ll let it go.”

Without fail — when I’ve truly meant it & demonstrated that I mean it — a door opened.

An opportunity surfaced.

A reminder came to let me know that

the call to the actor's path still stands.

As the chu'ch folk say: "He may not come when ya want him to, but he's always on time!"

Belief is not denial. It’s alignment.

It’s trusting that there WILL be

a performance of those things

spoken over you — spoken to you

even when the stage is dark.

So I ask you:

What are you believing God for?

#InHerSeason #EbbFlow #GodsPlan

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